Why in the Hell am I even here?
FUCK EVERYTHING. EVERY GOD DAMN MISERABLE THING. I AM DRAINED OF ENERGY, TIME, CARE, FRIENDSHIPS AND MONEY. I CAN’T HELP BUT FEEL LIKE NONE OF THIS EVEN MATTERS AND I SHOULD STOP WASTING TIME WITH ANYTHING. I KILL MYSELF TO HELP EVERYONE GET BY, AND I CAN’T EVEN GET SO MUCH AS A DAMN PHONE CALL OR A SHRED OF COMMUNICATION OR CARE. MAYBE BEING IN A HOSPITAL DYING WOULD BRING OUT SOMETHING IN THESE ASSHOLES, BUT THEN AGAIN, PROBABLY NOT. EWNKJAFG4REHUEQJQWNDNWKLQND124UIBJNMDKU
It’s so odd realizing that you’re apart of an evolving generation.
At the point where new things are arising, and I find nothing amongst it worth my attention or liking. I actually feel “old”. I hate the music, the films, the shows.The Internet. I hate the internet and what it has transformed into. It used to be an escape and a hardly a source for information, and now it’s just…chatter. Mindless, meaningless chatter and “blogging”. Ridiculous videos of absolutely pointless acts, films of sequels and sequels of sequels or adaptations of books that were/are great and forcing a set visual, ruining the magic of what was originally written. Comedy isn’t even the damn same anymore, it’s filled with blunt, distasteful “jokes” that are either racist, sexual, or simply inside jokes and memes. What the hell happened to the subtlety? The jokes you never understood as a kid because they manipulated the common text to create an underlying quirk that everyone, not a specific group, could enjoy and relate to? It almost breaks my heart as an aspiring filmmaker to suffer through all of this bullshit. Situational comedies are not just of one whole scenario, it’s now of micro-situations that should hardly be shed light on. I am 19 and I feel older every single day. My mindset is just lost in some time period that doesn’t exist. I feel like the only one.
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